Dilema

Dunno what to do now?
Let go Or Patch it back like patchwork.

Dont Lie to me anymore.
i want the answer from your heart not from pressure.

I hate to be in the middle.
Nowhere close yet nowhere near.

anyway.
i found this song from my friend's blog.
quite nice and funny but quite vuglar also.
you're to be reminded to lower the volume or pluck in earphones.
as it is very offensive if your parents pass by or hears it.




i just changed my ear stud to a earring yesterday.
part of the reason is becuz my ear stud was missing.
but this earring kinda exp but still got it thanks to some help from my ex.
she like it very much.
and i like it very much too, quite fun to meddle with if you're bored cuz got the 3rings that can turn.

Ending

Its a pity thou.
It just ended right then and there.
Woke up in the morning
found the cursed the msg u left in my phone.

the outcome was clear and in reach.
however i didnt want to let go,
how selfish of me.
but now i come to accept it.
i only gave u disappointments
sorrows and tears.

Now that you have a chance to find someone who can give you happiness.
From the bottom of my heart i congrats you,
You betrayed me 4times
I cheated you 0times.
But the times i made you cry were more than 40times.

Now that we have broken up.
Your pain and sorrow no longer concern me.
Goodluck finding someone that can cherish you more.
One that give you less disappointments.


Our story started long enough and it will end today.
1year 5months 27days.
i cherished every moment with you before the 29th.

Truth about Zui Hou Zi Ci

A chinese song titled “The Last Time” which has been circulating on Youtube became a hit after rumours that the writer had passed away.

According to the story, this touching song was written by a 17 year old girl. It is believed she is a Sporean or a Msian. She had a loving BF and both of them had planned to get marry when they graduate.

But one day, the girl discovered herself suffering from a rare skin disease, whereby her skin will become thinner and thinner until they are so fragile, any strong movement would cause her skin to tear open. This is a bit like the paper skin disease which I had posted before that happens on a baby.

And so, she started to write this love song for her BF, hoping to finish it before she died. When the song was completed, she insisted on singing it herself and record it for her BF, risking that her skin may tear any moment by the singing force.

Before she died, her last words to her BF was, “I can’t see the next sunrise anymore. But it’s ok. Because you have come with me so far. I love you.” And people had been saying that the girl is already passed away. There were even another version saying that she had committed suicide.

HOWEVER…………..

some time back, a girl by the name of Lovynn Kan was on the MRT when she heard people chatting about this song and how pitiful the girl was had passed away.

She wanted to walk over and tell them, the girl who wrote the song is not dead but alive! Because she is the writer. But she added that the story was not compose by her and don’t know how it started. She had actually written the song for a charity for the Tsunami victims back in 2004.

She had entered the Spore Idol before and this song had been played before on local radio station, but it never was really noticed until now. She is also the student of 2 well known local singer.

So the air is now cleared! The writer of this song is 22 year old Lovynn Kan who is still well and alive kicking!

And not as what the story was, composed and started by don’t know who.

Sad Song

today dar just ask me to listen to a song.
quite sad... but i never tear :x

from what she say.
the writer of this song is dead cuz of a certain skin disease.
she got too much white blood cell and cause her skin to get thinner every passing day.
so when she sing this song, it is very painful for her. Cuz her throat skin/vessels will burst if she stretch too long.

from what dar said: she died after singing this song cuz her vessels bursted.
Yes, this is a disease similiar to high blood pressure when the blood burst from inside.

and her BF knows she like sunset/sunrise( i dunno which)
went to all over the world to capture sunset/sunrise photo for her.
But however the sad thing is her bf fell off a cliff and died while capturing a certain sun in a certain country.
Sad, do this for the love one yet god dont favor him.


From what i found out.
this girl is still alive.
Her name is Lovyn Kan
she is from a music school in singapore.
she compose this song 5years ago.
What hit her was when she saw the tsunami victims. So she sang this song to encourage herself and the victims.

About the BF i dunno so much.
However i think she still has the disease.

Sit back and enjoy the video.
Its not original.
It have been edited and role played.



this is the most viewed of this song version




Me: All the best regards.
Hold on till the end don't give up.
who knows 1-2years later someone invent a cure for this even thou it is a rare disease.
Even now they invented cell division method to help couples who cant have baby.

All the best in your life. FIGHT ON!


Oh Ya open the video in another tab with youtube cuz of my annoying myspace player sorry :(

The rain

The rain that started falling collects the tears
i coldly collect them with this hand with mixed feelings.

Without seeing your smile i walk this lonely road
As a result turning my regret to my strength

But you know, it can change i remain like this till i throw away my hope
Always with you i wanted to see the same dream as you

The repeating downpours are soaking my memories into the soil
Even that fated meeting
The downpouring night is never gona to stop

The rain that started to fall is taking your tears in with the wind
Collected under your chin my sins is reflected in a drop of water

Is it okay with you? There is only one answer
This is the result born from sorrow Please don't ask me anymore

If I blame myself will my feelings become alittle more comforting
Listen,always I will be there for you

I'm walking lining up my hypocrisies even if we laugh together
The rain is washing everything away
The truth is that i was crying on the day you told me it was over
My false smile is melting


I keep doubting I keep worrying
Because without you what will there be left
I keep doubting I keep worrying
Until then what will be left will only be pieces of memories


The never ending memory Slowly I'm holding my breathing
I'm closing my eyes and exhale
I'm remembering the first meeting I'm strongly grasping your hand on the last
Wishing to tomorrow

The repeating drops of tears Makes me regret the last moment more and more
Even that hurtful parting of the day is never stop hurting
The downpouring night is never gona stop
The night is crying for another chance

1st step

Today meet 'dar' at her school at around 5.45.
on the way there i sit the bus139 there.
the stupid bangala behind me got a stench sia.
not only making me uncomfortable, he speak in the phone the person deaf sia, i on full blast with earpiece still can hear his voice.

After that we went to meet aaron and company at the library.
These days they keep going to the library so very easy to find them lol.
We went to eat the duck rice near bugis street.
i would say only not bad cuz the duck's drumstick not very meaty yet cost $4 liao.
But alot people queue for it.
Next go there eat maybe i try other bah.

Sorry for telling you cannot eat this and that.
Don't know how many more days i will be calling you dar and going out with you.

Life

Looks like it isnt over yet.
she still needs to think.
I cant be selfish and have her all by myself so whatever choice she make it means what i will choose.

I hope to be with her again.
But i dont know what will the outcome be.
Let fate decide it then.

nothing much to blog today.