Fcuking Feelings

How i wish i am emotionless.
i wont even get uptight if it was just a mere breakup.

things i asked u to do, u didnt?
but now becuz of that guy, he asked you to do and you did it.
you broke me from head to toe.

now i learn that a broken glass even when glued back together. there will still be cracks.
not long later, it will shattered to even more pieces.
no matter how much u glue it back, it will still break and everytimes it breaks it will become more fragile.

fuck man. i feel so screwed up.
what i predicted really happened.
i hate myself.
i feel like dying. but its not worth dying for just her.
things she did hurt me indeed.
i feel like dying not becuz she is not around but from the pain she gave me.

guess i have to stand back on my feet and build up my pace in living.
i wish you last long with him.

he owe me one.
watch your back when you are on the streets.

just these few months how many dam streets i walked. i cant even count myself.
things you said to him, you never said to me.

Wasted myself skipping and quitting school just to accompany you.
Wasted my soul putting effort to keep you.
Wasted my life getting hurt in the end.

How many times you said sorry.
But it wont even help.
if sorry was so powerful then everyone can just say sorry.